Update!!!

So its been a long while since the last time I posted something on here.

I believe it was actually just before classes ended last Spring....

and now a whole summer has passed and the Fall Semester has started.

Things have been pretty good :D

A lot actually went down this summer.

I went to Comic Con down in SD (it was amazing, and I can't wait for next years!),

I saw Rod Stewart at the Verizon Amphitheater (as a birthday present for my mom, the whole family went),

I finally hung out with Jolene after not seeing her since MY birthday in APRIL!

(its funny 'cause I actually got to see her because it was HER birthday... lol),

I went to see Tom Petty at the Verizon Amphitheater with Jolene (it was my present to her),

I went and saw the Dinosaurs The Live Experience show at the Honda Center... it was AMAZING

(that was my b-day present for Albert... he's a big Jurassic Park fan so it was only fitting).

The last three were all last month and all the week before classes started again. 

So it was like a grand finale for the summer... hahaha

Oh and like a week or so after Comic Con I discovered the Twilight Saga...

and let me tell you, those four books are AMAZING!

They are all pretty lengthy, the next one always passing the previous by like a hundred or so pages,

and they are just so captivating that once you start reading you don't want to put it down until you're done. 

So much so that I was literally going to bed only after reading to the point were it was hard to keep my eyes open anymore,

and then waking up early and just grabbing the book and reading the whole day.

I wouldn't even stop to eat... I would eventually eat only because it was necessary, not because I really wanted to.

It would take me no longer than two days to read each book, 

and for anyone that knows me that is a world record for myself.

I'm not much of a book person and for most books that I do read no matter how good

I'm always able to put it down and go on with my normal activities.

Anyways so now I am anxiously awaiting the release of the movie version of Twilight,

and though I already know there are going to be differences between the movie and the book, due to some trailers I've seen, I still can't wait!

I'm actually in the process of re-reading the books, actually taking my time, and I'm finding out a lot of new things that I seemed to have missed the first time around :) 

So yeah enough about Twilight (even though I could never have enough... hahaha)

I've been accepted to Cal State Fullerton for the Spring and I'm really excited about it :D

In the mean time though I'm taking a couple of classes at SAC, just to keep in the habit and to keep my creativity flowing.

And so far I am very fond of them :D (I know fond is an unusual word choice but I just didn't want to use the word love, that word is thrown around too easily. (the English language is very laking compared to the Spanish language when it comes to that)

Anyways both of my teachers are great and I can tell this is gonna be a fun semester :) 

So this summer was pretty great and the rest of the Fall semester should be pretty great as well, 

but lately I've gotten into a really bad sleeping pattern... and it seems to be getting worse.

I get to bed some what late keeping myself occupied with random things,

and no matter how tiered I am I always wake up an hour or two before I'm supposed to and then its really hard to fall back asleep.

I just roll around in bed trying to fall asleep again not being able to.

Like today I got to bed like at one in the morning, completely exhausted, and woke up at like three thirty (only two and a half hours of sleep).

I got up to use the bathroom and then got back in bed to see how long it would take me to fall asleep again.

To my surprise it didn't take very long, this time, only like ten minutes but then like an hour later I woke up again.

Not wanting to fight with myself rolling around in bed trying to get myself to fall asleep I decided to do this instead.

I think this is the worst its gotten in the week or so since it started.

After labor day though, I got a really bad sunburn and as a way to actually get some sleep I took tylenol and it actually worked!

I would actually sleep until my alarm would go off, but I only did that twice.

I'm not a big fan of taking medication, much less if I don't actually need it (even if it helps my get the sleep I need)

So after that things went back to the way they were, sleep deprivation and all, which brings us back to now. 

Hopefully I start getting better sleep soon 'cause I'm gonna start working at Best Buy this week and I really don't want to be tiered while I'm at work. 

Wish me luck :)

So thats  what I've been up to :D

Hope everyone else had as great a summer as I did,

and hopefully I'll have something interesting to put in here soon :)

- Johanna Banana

What Are We Worth?

We are all worth so much

but not all of us know or believe it.

There are times when we settle for something or someone

thinking that it's the best we can do.

There are some of us who go through failed relationship

after failed relationship and we wonder.... why?

Never realizing that we need to stop letting our 

emotions control us and use our brains. 

The reality is most of us can do much better, 

and if we only used our brains we would be able to see 

the warning signs before we get to deep into things.

The thing is we all have things from our pasts that have 

changed us, affected us, made us into the people we are today.

And unfortunately some of those things have been negative 

and I guess you could say they have crippled us,

not physically but mentally and emotionally.

This alone makes it harder to continue on in life in a healthy way.

We all need to connect the dots and find the way 

to not let these things continue crippling us.

We need to see ourselves for what we are really worth

and not let anyone tell us differently.

Only then can we leave these bad experiences behind 

and truly live the way we are supposed to. 

Friends

Last night I went out with friends for a couple hours. 

We didn't do much just went to a hookah place and hung out.

We played a silly game and had lots of fun.

Its times like those were I really see what great friends I have 

We play video games, watch movies, have bonfires, sit around

Its always fun

I can't see myself without them 

and I know that they are the ones I want to keep around forever

Who knows what we will be doing 5 or even 10 years from now

how different will our lives be? 

one thing is sure we will all be there for eachother

   

This is the beginning...

So lately a lot of things have been running through my head and I've finally decided to "buckle down," so to speak, and have a spot to get all these thoughts down and "worked out."

Hopefully I stick to this and it actually goes somewhere. 

As for now I really have to finish a paper for one of my classes so.... 

I'll be back soon to put a real post on here :)